Trust me, you aren't the only one! I read about all the trillions of dollars in grants given to non-profits and state agencies and I wonder who they are helping when you follow every word in their application ..only to find out a year later they have no such application. Even when I have followed up to MAKE SURE they received it. Most non-profits are just as corrupt as our government. I know, one example is my mother is a non-profit, for animals and she spends spends spends on herself and the family she loves. It makes me sick because I have been homeless for our years and lost all of my animals been robbed, raped, and it just goes on and on. I have more examples but that one hurts the most because I am disabled and she knows and doesn't care. My entire family of origin knows but now that I am unable to give give give to them I seem to have vanished!